Today is a day where I feel worthless to this world.
I did nothing to contribute, instead, I gave for myself.
I've felt like crap, thanks cystic fibrosis.
Headache, all day.
Heart ache, for somebody that I shouldn't be aching for. Sorry Mom. I love you.
Back ache, when I sit, stand, lay down, or walk around.
Jaw ache...really? a JAW ache?
Lung ache, cough cough coughing.
2 additional treatments to soothe, but the effects seem to wear off.
Sinus rinse? Still headaches.
I can't find the ibuprofen, too lazy. I guess that means I shouldn't be complaining about all this stuff.
I'm just in the mood, I guess.
Exhaustion. All day. Everything adding to exhaustion.
I slept for 3 1/2 hours, it kind of helped.
Woke up to acid reflux, gross. I love Tums.
I took the coldest icy shower of my life, to wake me up.
I'm awake.
I ate dinner, it was yummy, but I ate it quickly because its one of the only things I've eaten today, so I feel a little sick to my stomach.
People will read this; everything is not as it seems, Carly.
Strong all the time? I think not.
Compliments, everywhere. Is this what people compliment on?
A blog post complaining?
Am I really that strong?
Because I'm feeling significantly weak right now.
I'm not living up to what people rave about.
Man, I hate cystic fibrosis.
I'm surfing tomorrow morning, with my friend Mikayla.
You better not repeat yourself tomorrow, CF.
I swear I will punch a hole in my wall.
It's just been one of those days.
I did nothing to contribute, instead, I gave for myself.
I've felt like crap, thanks cystic fibrosis.
Headache, all day.
Heart ache, for somebody that I shouldn't be aching for. Sorry Mom. I love you.
Back ache, when I sit, stand, lay down, or walk around.
Jaw ache...really? a JAW ache?
Lung ache, cough cough coughing.
2 additional treatments to soothe, but the effects seem to wear off.
Sinus rinse? Still headaches.
I can't find the ibuprofen, too lazy. I guess that means I shouldn't be complaining about all this stuff.
I'm just in the mood, I guess.
Exhaustion. All day. Everything adding to exhaustion.
I slept for 3 1/2 hours, it kind of helped.
Woke up to acid reflux, gross. I love Tums.
I took the coldest icy shower of my life, to wake me up.
I'm awake.
I ate dinner, it was yummy, but I ate it quickly because its one of the only things I've eaten today, so I feel a little sick to my stomach.
People will read this; everything is not as it seems, Carly.
Strong all the time? I think not.
Compliments, everywhere. Is this what people compliment on?
A blog post complaining?
Am I really that strong?
Because I'm feeling significantly weak right now.
I'm not living up to what people rave about.
Man, I hate cystic fibrosis.
I'm surfing tomorrow morning, with my friend Mikayla.
You better not repeat yourself tomorrow, CF.
I swear I will punch a hole in my wall.
It's just been one of those days.
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July 27, 2010 at 8:06 PM
Everybody has those days. Of all people, you deserve to complain. I love you, Carlster. I'm so sorry about your exhausting day <3
July 27, 2010 at 10:01 PM
You don't have to live up to anything.
And you don't have to be strong all the time.
Conclusion?
You're not perfect.
And who would ever expect you to be?
P.S.
I love you.
August 9, 2010 at 12:44 PM
Carly,
Those who love you and know you best just think you are an amazing individual and are so blessed to have you in their lives everyday. Everybody has lousy days, the point is what you do next...get up , go on and make the next one the best you possibly can.
August 17, 2010 at 1:04 AM
Hi Carly,
I haven't seen you in forever. We really should hang out sometime soon. Hopefully, we'll both go to Treasure Trails one year!
By the way, You are an AMAZING writer. Your blog is really inspiring.
As I said before, we should talk more often. :)
Sincerely, Bailee Pelham